`cynic's child`

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

its a blast baby! totally rox! but i wished i din hafta leave so early.. its kinda late oredi... bout 9 plus and i still haf homework to do so i went off wif gwen n chaoshun lor. anyway.. its a thank you dinner from mr leow for all e OGLs.. yippee~ everyone was cheering away while having food.. and not to mention, i took lotsa photos too! we even had mass dance.. den i was like hopping around wif a stitch coz i ate so much (buffet dinner mah)... e onli thing i regret is dat i din take a pic wif yihao. wen we were leaving, he was like so close to us.. den e rest of e ppl were having fun at e other side of e canteen so dey won see me mah.. but he's toking to e guard den gwen wasnt feeling too good.. so i din stop and wait for yihao to be free so dat we could take a pic. nvm.. next time lor.. sigh~

feeling kinda worried now coz miss choo is intending to downsize e team. now we have 17 ppl.. den i tink she's gonna cut bout 3 to 5 ppl.. oh gosh~ im so scared dat i'll be axed.. but till now, i haben received news la. so far, jielin n wenda have unfortunately been booted out.. so i wonder wen it'll be my turn. i hope its never!!! it all depends on e committee... coz miss choo asked em who dey wanna keep in e team. gosh... im so scared.. i hope dey trust me enuff to keep me in e team.. i'll make sure i'll work my bestest bestest no matter wat. speaking of dat.. we had a game for training today. at first, i was quite bad... my passes got intercepted (as usual).. but after dat, i tink i did quite well and thankfully miss choo was sitting at e side watching. hope she witnessed e effort i put in la.. for now, im figuring out how to pass e ball properly without it being intercepted so easily.

geee.. and i teased yihao today on my way to e netball court. he was carrying a table mah.. den i said "yihao, y u so sad?!" den he turned and looked at me with such a an endearing smile. haha.. now my heart is fluttering away... and chaoshun is trying to teach me 'now n forever'. in case u dunno.. its e song dat yiha sang during e preparation for jj night and it mesmerised so many girls lor.. including me. no la.. i was oredi captivated during e OGL camp.. so ya, im trying my best to master it. i wouldnt believe it if i were to sing openly in front of someone in e past... but now, im like showcasing my voice to chaoshun while we were practising. man, i kena influenced by my classmates liao.. and im so desperate to go to kbox! hahaa... coz my classmates juz lurve singing man... great talents der.. and now im jumping onto e bandwagon as well. keke~

family outing to sentosa on sat! yay! but b4 dat, i got some cip thingy at east coast from 1am till 9am e next day.. will be quite tiring but i dun care! haha.. its for e tsunami victims.. fund-raising. den after dat, im gonna party at sentosa.. wahoo!

butterflies whispered at
1/18/2005 09:04:00 PM

Saturday, January 15, 2005

yea man.. first og outing! wah, bad impression leh... coz i was late for 15 mins hahaha... anyway, e turnout was quite alright. 22 ppl leh! coool man.. even my own OG4'04 oso dun haf such a big number.. went to seoul garden at takashimaya. wah.. like illegal gathering liddat... so many ppl walk together haha. its 22 bucks lor! wah.. but i din eat my fill la.. i swore i could have eaten more if given more time.. played 7-up together... den we made yonghui(my fellow OGL) do a forfeit. hahaha.. damn funny la, coz he had to stand outside a glass window of a restuarant, face e customers and do e chicky dance while we provided e music. geee.. we're such evil ppl.. actuali.. its my suggestion la. haha... yea, den took lotsa photos as well... weee!

were walking to the heeren wen we were approached by this grp of ppl from tourism singapore and dey were playing 'amazing race' den dey needed ppl to help them complete a task. so i volunteered la, along wif wanxian n yonghui... did this caterpillar walk wer we had to tie our legs wif a single raffia string n walk in a single file for bout 20m... got a free calendar at e end of it. quite boring la after dat.. coz we were walking around aimlessly and we were split in 2 grps liddat... kinda hard to coordinate coz some of em were feeling bored so dey decided to wander off by themselves. den go cineleisure... wanted to go play pool or something but e place was full. ended up playing table hockey at e arcade... but its so fun lor! e girls were like shrieking away.. even koko, may, glenda and lydia (known for being more bochap than e rest...) got hyped up lor...

saw lotsa other jj peeps as well.. den went to starbucks to chill. koko suggested it la.. but whoa, e place was full of smokers lor. but we found a place which is relatively smoke free and settled der.. played murderer! hahaa... not very fun la... toopid game... coz we wanted to kill time mah. but it was quite funny la.. coz one time, dixie was e murderer.. den she so excited till she din kill anybody.. den e rest fed up liao, so ask e person to own up... den she cry coz she too excited!!! hhahaa... we juz erupted in laughter la haha.. funny~! den i it got a lil boring.. glenda, may n lydia had to go.. den we played truth or dare. haha.. this is e fun part.. e dares were quite tame la.. but we kinda got to noe each other. i oso kena.. den i was forced to tell who i liked la... so i told em bout yihao n weijie lor.. bleah~ right in front of some og members who oso liked yihao la haha.. den i had to go liao.. e rest stayed behind n chilled longer.. ya... so dats bout it. this fri/sat/sun got family outing to sentosa/east coast! weyhey!! its mass dance on e beach baby!

tml got training.. den after dat, mr leow treating ogls to buffet dinner in sch... yay, can see yihao again ahhaa!!!

butterflies whispered at
1/15/2005 11:31:00 PM

Thursday, January 13, 2005

ahhh.. i cant stop tinking bout yihao... geee, this crush is getting more n more serious by e day. dunno whether he reciprocates my feelings or not. coz sometimes, wen i glance at him, i happen to catch him looking at me. and he likes to tease me weneva i walk past... so could it become a reality? i dunno la... anyway, today i gave him e photo dat i took of him n tim during orientation.. attached a note of thanks to it as well. after he received it, he tapped my arm and said thanx... oh my gosh, i swore i could have fainted... cant phantom wat was e look in his eyes but i could tell dat it was sincere.. and my heart skipped a beat wen he looked me in e eye wen he was thanking me. gagagaa... im 17 oredi yet im behaving like an adolescent.. haha, how how? stayed back in sch to do my homework b4 going home.. partially bcoz he was der as well la.. den wen he went off wif weijie n apple, he teased me again.. gagaga... im going crazy over him liao...

and last night, evelyn called me and we both shared stuff bout e 'cute guys' in our lives... haha... wat a merry time.

tink i gonna scrape this blog n and start all over again soon.. coz im sounding like a desperado haha... idiot~ cannt let ppl see leh... so pai sey~ im aching from tues training but it was worth it coz yihao was having his soccer as well.. den we ran 5km! haha.. i came in 2nd... so can show off abit haha. but one thing im reali sad bout is dat miss choo wasnt der to see me put in effort.. shucks la. im so afraid dat she'll exclude me from e overseas trip again... which is bloody hurting coz i reali put in a lot of effort to improve myself n i hope she can see dat. hopefully tml she'll be present and dat i won screw up my performance again... honestly, i tink my court skills suck. my passes cant get thru... it always get tipped off... but i've improved on my runs and footwork liao... so i muz reali overcome dat obstacle n prove it to miss choo dat i deserve to make it to e team.

coming to studies... i've made a decision to stay back in sch everyday if im free to finish my homework b4 i go home. partially bcoz i wanna have a chance to see yihao as well la.. coz e councillors oso pia their homework in sch till quite late lor. hehehe.. in a way, i can be disciplined enuff to stay on track wif my studies and to feast on eye candy as well. but e prob is.. so many j1s like him as well! everytime dey walk past e councillor's board, dey'll stop n stare at yihao's pic for sometime... wah, damn jealous sia. even e girls from my OG oso smitten wif him... aiya, cannot blame la.. he's too charismatic liao. so far beyond my reach so i guess i'll juz make do wif fantasizing lor...

and e dance for talentime is slowly forming! i cant wait!!! but e thing is we onli got 4 girls in e group... and i tink e dance won look good wif onli us. i suggested getting guys la.. but jj seems to be short of guys who can dance. there are la.. but we are looking for ppl who can be committed n disciplined. apple came to mind.. but i tink he's not very keen. after all, we're all girls mah.. den mebbe he forming his own group to dance as well.. so we'll see la. we're doing e music now.. den nana gonna choreograph lor. hope it turns out nice la.. truthfully speaking, i reali dun hope for e dance to be feminine and nua nua... i wan it to be full of power n slick dance moves. hopefully it'll turn out liddat la.. cheerios! haha...

butterflies whispered at
1/13/2005 10:26:00 PM

Monday, January 10, 2005

since i blogged.. firstly coz i have no time ya.. been busy wif orientation camp e whole week. man it was a blast~ wanted to blog wen i reach home after breaking camp.. but drag n drag till now lor.. haha... den most of e stuff forgot liao. juz wanna say dat my OG has been great.. seeing em grow from strangers to close frenz in a matter of days. on e 1st admin day.. everyone juz din obey our calls to cheer... damn disheartening. but slowly, e spirit started to build up thru e days.. even those sports attachment ppl became enthu as well. on e last night of e camp, i cried for em coz mr leow kept toking bout how their smiles can make an OGL's day... and i was tinking how true it was b4 i realised dat tears were streaming down. not supposed to la.. coz OGLs r supposed to be strong. but after dat go family spot got debrief mah.. dats wen i cried again coz i told em how much dey meant to me. wat i din expect was dat after i dismissed em, dey came over n hugged me.. even e guys. i was so so so touched... e feeling is juz undescribable reali... e sense of happiness u get wen dey smile back at u... e way dey say thank u for wateva u've done for em.. this OGL experience is something which i'll nv have given up for anything else. seriously... till now, im still receiving 'thank you' notes from em..

hiak hiak.. and more imptly.. im in love! aiya.. not love... a crush. very BEEEEG crush.. but target shifted... dunno y leh. its juz my heart... its not weijie anymore.. now it's yihao. mebbe coz during e camp, he keep teasing me... like how firdaus did during peer leaders camp in sec 3 la.. i juz fell for him. now weneva i see him in sch, my heart flutters. weijie ah.. mebbe still abit of attraction but not so much oredi coz we din tok much during e camp... it was more wif yihao... and im certain im more smitten wif yihao. bcoz y? he can sing! wahhh... during e prep for jj nite, he sang for e j1s as well as e OGLs... man, his voice reali very nice... but i tink alot of e j1s oso fall for him liao, including my own OG members la... cham ah, cant fight la. haha.. till now, onli apple knows my secret. aint gonna tell anybody yet haha... juz hoping dat mebbe he'll reciprocate this feeling lor.

anyway.. been feeling quite frustrated over netball. there was a carnival on sunday but i din go coz i wasn't selected... but y? i still cant figure it out.. i mean, i've been excluded for so many events oredi.. first e m'sia trip, den e sch team for e nationals... den now this. its reali a hard blow.. for e first 2 times, mebbe im reali not good enuff la.. but im pretty sure dat i've improved. no more one-and-a-half steps anymore... seriously, wen yuyin msged me dat i wasnt selected, i felt reali bad. juz wanted to break down at e dat moment... and another fact is coz some j1s were chosen instead. sigh~ i dun care.. i gonna find out e reason y from miss choo tml. im fighting my hardest to get into e team this yr.. its my last chance and if i hafta disgrace myself to ask for reasons y i wasnt selected, so be it. its my last resort... i had to noe wats wrong... and hopefully, if im reali not good enuff, i'll juz wrk my socks off... i dun care~ this is e determination im wiling to give for netball... my most beloved sport. i won let anybody spoil this goal of mine..

back to other stuff. today is back to sch again! seriously.. i've been in a haze-cum-sleepy mode for half of e day b4 i awaken for e second half of e day... haha. y? coz yihao teased me again.. dunno y, i suddenly become very awake. mebbe coz of e endorphins la haha.. holiday assignments haben finished yet but im not too worried bout dat. im determined to start anew from this day onwards.. and i did by revising my econs notes today. coool eh? i've nv done revising b4 hahaa... as in, revising on e day of e lecture itself. spent 3 hours on homework n revision b4 coming to use e comp leh... haha. so accomplished! but dunno whether i can keep this up for long or not... hope so la haha. tml long day.. got netball training.. gonna show miss choo dat i'v got wat it takes... SO till den~

yihao yihao... lalala~

butterflies whispered at
1/10/2005 11:13:00 PM

Saturday, January 01, 2005

its 2.42am... still on e comp coz i haben been using it for bout 2 days. too tired la.. preoccupied wif OGL stuff but its worthwhile la. juz a quick recap..

on thurs, we had a dry run of e whole orientation week. quite sian but we had to do it la.. den i was like super-enthu for everything... haha, crazy~ anyway, wj gave me this 5-cent coin at e grandstand after lunch... it was meant as a joke la, but i kept it anyway.. and ya, of coz i was thrilled la hehe. kept it inside my wallet, but shee-it leh.. it got mixed up wif another 2 5-cent coins. oh man.. cannot keep for remembrance liao! dats besides e pt... ya, e whole day was spent running around... doing cheers... bleah bleah. in e morning, we had this thrashing session at e pe porch.. mr leow made e councillors do push-ups in front of all e OGLs bcoz we werent bonded together and so he punished em for failing in their job. man.. it was so distressing... i juz cried wen i see everyone of e councillors doing e push-ups one by one and some of em were crying as well. i duno how to explain e feeling but my heart juz wrenched wen i saw em liddat.. mebbe its coz im guilty for not doing my part to bond wif e others, or mebbe i feel linked to e councillors.. i reali dunno. but e tears juz came.. and wen finally it was over, we juz carried on e programme like nutting happened coz we're supposed to have a positive mindset bout it. and i admire e councillors for this spirit coz im sure dey were pretty demoralised after dat session but dey still geared up to make me familarise wif e stuff... i salute you, councillors! anyway, e day ended wif us doing e 'i love you, you love me' song.. it was reali touching n heartwarming man.. im so glad we managed to prove mr leow wrong dat we as OGLs can bond together as one big family. had a games-attached briefing after everyone was dismissed den i went straight to work liao.. wah, super tiring lor... but i still pulled thru e day la... thank goodness. came home and juz crashed into e bed haha...

today had OGL meeting oso... this time to paint posters n banners. and here i would like to thank mich for painting such a fantastic banner for F1, all by herself.. muaks, mich! some of us stayed in e pe porch to do e posters while others went to e hall to decorate e surroundings wif stars, hearts n whatnot to give e sch e orientation-feel. man, it looked reali great.. hope e incoming J1s will be impressed. after dat, had a heart-to-heart talk wif my family... coz i assitant family head man... so while tim was dealing wif those borderline ppl, i was thrashing it out wif my members and hopefully by orientation, we'll be even more bonded n less clique-ish. yea, i reali hope so.. and did i mention dat i cant wait for orientation to start? im soooooooo excited! been dreaming bout it ever since i withdrew my OGL application from orientation 2'04. and now its gonna be realised! yay yay! oh, we got our OGL shirts too! super nice... thanx again councillors. after dismissal at around 2+, i stayed n danced wif some others at e pe porch coz i din feel like going to work straightaway. it was raining anyway.. so we juz danced n danced lor... weeee, great workout! first danced wif tim den wif jinyi.... see, another good time to bond wif my family ^.^ went for lunch at boon lay food village wif tim coz e rest of my family bang sey us... saw xj, tp, jietong, elaine n jielin as well. den after dat went work... and at around 11pm, my dad came n we went for e boon lay countdown. not much la... not very fun oso.. i dun feel e spirit. mebbe coz i too tired or wat la.. saw a few frenz like yongshen, yingxiang, simon, yetfeng, desmond, vivien, yannick and a few others...

i tink i started to slim down again. der was a period wen i was growing more than usual.. den now, i became thin again. heck! i tink its bcoz of OGL la.. run here run der.. nv eat proper meal. btw... i din eat lunch yesterday n dinner today... so i onli managed 2 meals a day for 2 days... which is BAD~ and my jeans started to loosen again.. and i could wear back e other pair of jeans which i tot i grew outta.. eeeee, how???? and my voice super-sexy la.. coz keep cheering n cheering so it became husky liao hahaa. k la.. tml muz TRY n do my hw liao... going to sch in e morning to give a admin list to e councillors... den mebbe going jp to get food/ziplock for orientation lor... yea, still got lots to do so ya, ciao~

butterflies whispered at
1/01/2005 07:02:00 PM