`cynic's child`

[[see through me]]
[x] applie
[x] elaine/menghui/apple pie/heng mui/ah meng
[x] sweet seventeen turning elephantine eighteen
[x] 02/11/1987
[x] jurong junior college
[x] family, friends
[x] passion, truth, beauty, love
[x] adventure seeker, daredevil at heart
[x] cynical optimist
[x] introvertly emotional
[x] hypersensitive, uberparanoid
[x] down-to-earth, happy-go-lucky

[[fancies]]
[x] white chocolate
[x] rum and raisin ice cream
[x] strawberries in any form
[x] gummy candies
[x] contemporary popular dance
[x] singing chee-na pop
[x] pink and white
[x] shopping and window-shopping
[x] swimming
[x] short poems
[x] stoning
[x] smiling and making ppl smile
[x] mint

[[pooh-poohs]]
[x] smokers
[x] animal abusers
[x] two-timers/womanisers
[x] male chauvinist pigs
[x] injections/dental/surgery
[x] flying bugs
[x] supernatural occurences
[x] gore
[x] insecurity

[[withered glory]]
December 2004 January 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

[[friends and favs]]
designer
chaoshun
evelyn
xiaowen
serena
Xiaxue
Ayumi Hamasaki
Shutterfly ;

say your piece

Monday, January 10, 2005

since i blogged.. firstly coz i have no time ya.. been busy wif orientation camp e whole week. man it was a blast~ wanted to blog wen i reach home after breaking camp.. but drag n drag till now lor.. haha... den most of e stuff forgot liao. juz wanna say dat my OG has been great.. seeing em grow from strangers to close frenz in a matter of days. on e 1st admin day.. everyone juz din obey our calls to cheer... damn disheartening. but slowly, e spirit started to build up thru e days.. even those sports attachment ppl became enthu as well. on e last night of e camp, i cried for em coz mr leow kept toking bout how their smiles can make an OGL's day... and i was tinking how true it was b4 i realised dat tears were streaming down. not supposed to la.. coz OGLs r supposed to be strong. but after dat go family spot got debrief mah.. dats wen i cried again coz i told em how much dey meant to me. wat i din expect was dat after i dismissed em, dey came over n hugged me.. even e guys. i was so so so touched... e feeling is juz undescribable reali... e sense of happiness u get wen dey smile back at u... e way dey say thank u for wateva u've done for em.. this OGL experience is something which i'll nv have given up for anything else. seriously... till now, im still receiving 'thank you' notes from em..

hiak hiak.. and more imptly.. im in love! aiya.. not love... a crush. very BEEEEG crush.. but target shifted... dunno y leh. its juz my heart... its not weijie anymore.. now it's yihao. mebbe coz during e camp, he keep teasing me... like how firdaus did during peer leaders camp in sec 3 la.. i juz fell for him. now weneva i see him in sch, my heart flutters. weijie ah.. mebbe still abit of attraction but not so much oredi coz we din tok much during e camp... it was more wif yihao... and im certain im more smitten wif yihao. bcoz y? he can sing! wahhh... during e prep for jj nite, he sang for e j1s as well as e OGLs... man, his voice reali very nice... but i tink alot of e j1s oso fall for him liao, including my own OG members la... cham ah, cant fight la. haha.. till now, onli apple knows my secret. aint gonna tell anybody yet haha... juz hoping dat mebbe he'll reciprocate this feeling lor.

anyway.. been feeling quite frustrated over netball. there was a carnival on sunday but i din go coz i wasn't selected... but y? i still cant figure it out.. i mean, i've been excluded for so many events oredi.. first e m'sia trip, den e sch team for e nationals... den now this. its reali a hard blow.. for e first 2 times, mebbe im reali not good enuff la.. but im pretty sure dat i've improved. no more one-and-a-half steps anymore... seriously, wen yuyin msged me dat i wasnt selected, i felt reali bad. juz wanted to break down at e dat moment... and another fact is coz some j1s were chosen instead. sigh~ i dun care.. i gonna find out e reason y from miss choo tml. im fighting my hardest to get into e team this yr.. its my last chance and if i hafta disgrace myself to ask for reasons y i wasnt selected, so be it. its my last resort... i had to noe wats wrong... and hopefully, if im reali not good enuff, i'll juz wrk my socks off... i dun care~ this is e determination im wiling to give for netball... my most beloved sport. i won let anybody spoil this goal of mine..

back to other stuff. today is back to sch again! seriously.. i've been in a haze-cum-sleepy mode for half of e day b4 i awaken for e second half of e day... haha. y? coz yihao teased me again.. dunno y, i suddenly become very awake. mebbe coz of e endorphins la haha.. holiday assignments haben finished yet but im not too worried bout dat. im determined to start anew from this day onwards.. and i did by revising my econs notes today. coool eh? i've nv done revising b4 hahaa... as in, revising on e day of e lecture itself. spent 3 hours on homework n revision b4 coming to use e comp leh... haha. so accomplished! but dunno whether i can keep this up for long or not... hope so la haha. tml long day.. got netball training.. gonna show miss choo dat i'v got wat it takes... SO till den~

yihao yihao... lalala~

butterflies whispered at
1/10/2005 11:13:00 PM