Sunday, April 24, 2005
i realised im not updating periodically here so dats y u guys probably dun get e full story of me and ziheng. but anyway, it doesnt matter. e latest update would be dat im still keeping my distance amidst all e confusion n potential lies. but at e same time, i juz feel like ignoring everything altogether and just planting myself in his embrace and not care bout wat may happen after dat. thankfully, im wise enuff to noe e backlashes this might generate so im doing wateva i can to discourage him. he's trying his bestest to move me, but i guess he's not up to it yet... mebbe coz i've got reali high expectations. im still waiting for him to prove his words and till den, i'll juz wait n do nutting hahaa. anyway, he bought me california strawberries on thurs coz he noes i haf dance practice till reali late and dat i love strawberries. so sweet... but e poor boy din noe dat dey hafta kept fresh at all times. he bought em on sunday and onli passed it to me on thurs... so like half of it has oredi rotted. haha... i froze e remaining ones and ate em wif condensed milk.. yum yum, but it still din taste half as nice as Ichigo Bliss.
seriously speaking, i dunno wat came over me and made me fall for him. i mean, he's not even e typical guy i would fall for and i told him dat. he's from ACS, egoistic, sweet-talker, high-end dirt-rich child...but oh well, sometimes he can be quite endearing. i reali dunno wat to do wif my feelings.. i wish i can juz walk away from him. he claims he loves me and dat im e one for him, but mich told me he cant love unconditionally. so dats a boo-boo. mebbe its impossible to request dat from every guy, but ah, i have my own expectations. he noes how to make me waver wif all his words.. but den again, its all juz words. i'll juz hafta see if he puts em into action or not.
checked out grace's friendster juz now. btw, she's ziheng's ex. ya.. well, she sounded melancholy bout their breakup. and her primary pic was of a bracelet or necklace of sorts which had hearts on it.. and she captioned it "...past". and did i mention she's giving me e stares in sch? and gwen told me dat her gang of frenz din have a gd impression of me coz i was being too close to ziheng.. aiya, wateva la. she may do all sorts of things to me, but i'll juz smile at her. dats wat elaine, firdaus and mich all tell mi to do... so i shall do juz dat.
been piling on e pounds recently but have been shedding them on just as quickly. felt myself growing a lil too much so i went for runs, exercises and OSIM body-shaping to tone down my body. and im so glad dat its gone... so now i hafta make sure i maintain this regular exercise routine and take care of my diet. i realised im eating too much starch and since im not having rigorous traiings anymore, dey're turning into fats from lack of utilisation. haha..
Mrs Razal commended me during civics this week, dat im a very well-balanced learner. i always seem very cheery and bubbly, always having fun yet i produce decent results, unlike elaine who stresses herself out coz she works so damn hard and ya la... she gets her results. and she told me i could improve so ya, im gonna do xtra work on top of e assignments as extra practice and hopefully it'll help me out. and besides, im a peer tutor for econs and it helps me in a way coz im forced to revise my econs notes in order to tutor my tutee, who happens to be Azrul. now, i onli gotta worry for my Chinese A coz i definitely cant make e cut for my language component. i've been failing all e mock exam papers lor... but for my literature component, i tink i can pull thru if i reali do put in effort to memorise... which is a WHOLE TRUCKLOAD of memorising. im oredi dying after studying one piece of poem and dey gonna test e whole syllabus of 5 poems, 5 proses, 8 ancient extracts, 5 dramas... yikes, how am i gonna make it????
anyway i signed up as a Student Liaison Officer for e Pre-U seminar. gonna be something like orientation except dat we'll be working wif ppl from diff schs. wish me luck.. and hope it doesnt take a toll on my studies coz my weekends for e whole of May will be taken up and e first week of my June hols will be gone too. and my Mid Year is scheduled for e 3rd week of June.. so i guess i'll hafta manage my time properly lor. im gonna be a good girl and start revision for all my subjects liao...
oh, i still dunno whether i shld get him a present for his bdae or not. im tinking of chocolates from ROYCE or SINS. we'll see la..
butterflies whispered at
4/24/2005 12:36:00 AM
Saturday, April 16, 2005
yep, CAEZURA got into the finals! yay... but kinda expected la. onli 4 grps in e semis.. den kick out one grp ma.. OCBC got out. im juz glad dat we've improved since e auditions.. got lotsa positive comments albeit a few screwups here and der. firstly, kai eng couldn come coz she was too stressed up and fell sick as a result. den deniece worried herself over dat and all on top of her other concerns.. secondly, after we finally sorted dat problem out, e AVAC crew had to screw up our dance. initially, e music started too early and we got our moves all mixed up. quickly got back on track and right after e bridge, wen we were changing into our next costume, dey stopped e music coz nobody was onstage(coz its supposed to be kai eng's solo). so we din get to finish off our dance.. sucky. and during e dance, i forgot my first chorus and banged during deniece during e freestyle. but oh well, we got in anyway and hopefully e final showdown will be a good and flawless one.
got back my progress report as well as PW results. i got Band 2! weee.. considered not bad la, but i wasn't reali concerned bout it. i nv had any extreme emotions over results, i duno y haha.. unless its like reali reali bad, den i'll juz cry my heart out. for term one, i had D for Chinese A, D for Econs and O for English Lit. well.. i missed the E mark by juz one miserable point. but my big consolation was GP.. i got a B4 wen everybody else's reflected Es and Fs. geee.. but i reali shldn be comparing results wif other ppl coz i shld fulfil my own targets instead of consoling myself coz of others' inferiority. but it aint a gd reflection of our current standard anyway.. coz alot of tests weren't taken into account. bloody hell !@#$%.
been so caught up wif dance for e past 2 weeks dat i haben been studying properly. thankfully, e finals are bout 3 weeks away tho we have rehearsals for 2 consecutive Fridays until e big day. but all we need is polishing up.. no more choreography so i guess it won be as taxing lor. muz start to get back to my work again... coz i signed up as a Student Liaison Officer for the Pre-U Seminar and i need to commit myself for the span of May and e 1st wk of my June hols. so i gotta get my studies all right n proper b4 i engage myself in other activities. and i seriously need to exercise again.. partly, to beat off e stress as well as to keep myself fit. i find myself getting fleshier by the day, so im cutting down on my intake of food and planning an exercise regime to regain my puny self. if not, i'll juz fill up all my big clothes and overgrow my small ones.. ewks.
ong ziheng ong ziheng. he pops into my head when he wasn't supposed to coz i promised myself to chuck tots of him all away. even if we were to be together, it'll hafta start anew coz all e rumours as well as his lack of action(in accordance to words of promise and watnot) is taking a huge toll on my impression of him. cant help it but i hafta subject him to my 'cold' treatment lor. till now, it seems as if he hasnt reali passed anything yet... and he definitely doesnt noe e meaning of romance. sigh... i can juz go and vomit blood toking bout. he's such a stonehead... but oh well, i guess dats wat endearing bout him. or mebbe he's juz too egoistic to show any true affection. so far, i can onli say its a disappointment la. can some prince charming juz come and sweep me off my horse and juz take me away from this dilemma? but den again, i'll probably be reluctant to go. argh.. dunno la.. e days go by agonizingly, and he's not doing anything great yet. so frustrating...
till i have betta things to write.
butterflies whispered at
4/16/2005 01:26:00 PM
