`cynic's child`

Monday, May 30, 2005

E COMP HAS BEEN REFORMATTED AND EVERYTHING IS GONE!!! INCLUDING MY PICTURES!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but thankfully, i got some of em backed up in Shutterfly and mypicgallery.com. so my loss aint dat great la. but those pics i took of myself all gone.. hahaa. im so devastated lor!

and tml's Pre-U Seminar! i cant wait! gonna be away for hostel life for 5 days n 4 nights. pray dat it'll be a great success alright?

im so excited dat i cant think coherently now. which explains im typing in short spurts instead of chunky paragraphs.

oh ya, i lost elaine's lit script along wif my foolscap. it was for a test in which she done very well for, and thanx to me, she cant get it anymore. boo hoo.. i was so pissed wif myself. even tho she said she's alright wif it, i still very guilty leh. sigh, how careless of me. i can onli hope dat i lost it in sch and some kind soul would return it to me lor.

and we scrapped e CAEZURA outing on saturday coz half of em cant make it at e last min. so sad... actuali i had alot of dates de. mich asked me out for overnight movie marathon and warren had a bbq at east coast, but i kept my slot free for e outing at kbox. in e end, i couldnt go for all coz e outing was cancelled at onli 6 plus, one hr b4 meeting time... so couldnt change plans in time. wanted to go out n thank auntie justine for her help during talentime de... but nvm la, hope we'll get to go out another time ba.

i wanna watch MADAGASCAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! booked it wif eve and fidz last wed, but it wasn't out! thanx to fidz' 'cock-eye' syndrome.. she mistaken e opening date. but we got to spend time wif each other for a while la... hahaa.

mid-year exams in 3 weeks time. gotta do my best for it! im slowly improving le.. got praised by Mrs Razal for my Lit test too! 31/50... my highest so far! gotta maintain it and keep it on track... after Pre-U Seminar muz pia very hard liao... whoooooooooo! i feel e adrenaline coming hehe! i guess its good, coz usually, i'll be like damn sian de. hahaha... yay! im on a high baby!

cya after Pre-U Seminar den!!!! gotta have an early night........ sweet dreamz

butterflies whispered at
5/30/2005 02:46:00 PM

Saturday, May 21, 2005

yay, im back from SLO camp oredi. super tiring, but i still dun feel sleepy leh hahaha. probably due to e fact dat its onli 2 day 1 night. but still not as 'high' as orientation camp la, coz we keep doing dry runs and memorising admin stuff and instructions. kinda mundane, but dats onli for e planning part. for e real thing, im sure its gonna be real great and im reali looking forward to it!!!! 5 days away, tucked away at a cosy corner of NTU hostels, away from home and immersed in e spirit of studying and knowledge. whoooo~ but b4 dat, we still have another dry run next fri and possibly saturday if we cant perfect it on friday. =S anyway, juz a comment on e camp... fostered lotsa acquaintances wif e grp members. can mingle quite well wif em, esp. wif my partner Chio Wentian and Hanh. most of em are j1s anyway, but it doesnt hinder me from getting along wif em. got lotsa things to improve tho... juz wanna thank e excos for their hard work behind e scenes and all e stress from being kena-ed by mr leow publicly.

hahaha. i went to camp wif flu and a horribly phelgm-plugged throat, somehow managed to dispel some of it by way of shouting/screaming and numerous water parades, but toopidly made it come back again by pigging out on Vochelle's White Chocolate. haha.. my fav choc after Tofifee liao. dun care liao la.. camp is over anyway, dun hafta put my health in 1st priority as yet. oh ya, did i mention i acquired e husky and sexy voice again? whoa~ haha. got one week to recover till Pre-U Seminar starts... so i muz start downing fruits n vitamins liao. surprisingly, Hanh and a few other family mates were bugged by e flu as well so we were quite a pathetic sight coughing away and sneezing while cheering n dancing. speaking of which, i had yihao as my dance partner for e first segment of mass dance. haha. a lil awkward coz i dun wan Nana to whack me, keke.

MIRACLE! ziheng din msg me for 2 days straight! haha. after a sidetrack from e usual routine of 3 msgs per day, on Thursday, he smsed me to ask how was my day blah blah and carried on for bout 4 msgs before he stopped replying again, asking bout e opening of Star Wars and dat he was bored and lonely these days. e next morning, i happen to walk past him and as usual, i couldnt face him so after seeing a brief glimpse of him, i turned my sight elsewhere and i was positive dat he let out an audible cluck of disapproval, u noe dat kinda sound teachers like to make wen say, someone is not following their orders n such. dat "tchi" sound. mebbe coz he saw e look on my face. dunno whether it was directed at me or wat la... but i figured more or less la coz he din bother to greet me good morning haha. heck ah! ~>_<~

long weekend here i come!

good news~! chaoshun and elaine made it up liao.. no more underlying tension anymore. yay yay! won venture into e details... wat matters is dat all's fine ^.^ im so glad. hadnt been feeling at ease bout it ever since it started escalating. but oh well, its over! hopefully dey will keep to their words and be reali honest wif each other, as well as to change themselves to become a betta fren to each other. WHOO~

ok, im feeling e effects of exhaustion now. no prizes for guessing wer im going.

butterflies whispered at
5/21/2005 11:39:00 PM

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

im feeling flu-ey again and its not a good thing. and its worse dat i keep piling on e chocs n biscuits in sch. dunno why but i feel e need to binge tho im consciously cutting down on my carbo intake by eating less rice and more veggie/meat. haben been out for a jog for about one week... kinda lazy and unmotivated la haha. anyway, i got an excuse since im feeling sick. but being one who would feel guilty for not keeping to e routine, i did some abdominal exercises in e hope of getting rid of my tummy. argh, it's taking so long to zap those cellulite off my tummy area. im looking for kakis to go to e gym wif me, any takers???

and i stil haben found e luxury of time to figure out how to decorate a blog. all e HTML i've learnt in e past have flown outta e window, i dunno when it happened tho.

i wanna go for microdermabrasion. get rid of all those acne scars. but its so damn expensive, and being old lil cynical me, i dunno wat happens at e beauty salon, whether dey'll tie me up and threaten to pump me wif e fats from their liposuction waste to make me go for other treatments. i saw one going for 68 bucks at Bioskin but as usual, "Terms and Conditions apply." dats a major turn-off for me. im tinking of e cheaper alternative, Loreal's Microdermabrasion Kit, going for onli 32 bucks. DIY though... and as e saying goes "Cheap things no good, good thing no cheap" so im still pondering over it. bah... mebbe someone can get me dat for my bdae or xmas *winks*

ziheng decide to up his msg output to me from 2 msgs a day to 4 today. it used to be "hey, good morning" and "have a good night". today it was "hey, good morning" then "sorry. forgive me" and now "hey, how's ur day". i presume der's another gd night msg later. and i have no idea y he said sorry... i dun dare to decide whether its good or bad. everything is still pretty much grey and murky. and i dunno y i juz cant look him straight in e eye in sch and mebbe smile for a greeting. today, our eyes met briefly for bout 2 times in all, and both instances, i looked away first. cant rmb how my facial expression was, but i tink i looked pissed. i dun feel pissed, but its juz a natural reaction leh... very hard to explain. i rmb seeing him, closing my eyes for 2 seconds and turning away... u noe? dat kinda "heck care, rolls eyes" look? juz dat i closed my eyes instead of rolling my eyes... one day, i'll master all my guts and smile back at him. show him dat im getting over it. yea, dats wat im gonna do.

surprise surprise. shishi actuali came to me for advice on firdaus. apparently, he's still e stubborn old cow. haha. den i juz related my experiences to her lor... haha. nv tot it'll become this way. and im quite fine wif it actuali. dey invited me for their bbq this friday but i got SLO camp, so too bad lor haha.

been slacking for 2 nights coz i din have homework. by right i shld be studying for my mid-year oredi.. its during e 3rd week of june hols and i probably won have time to study in e 1st 2 weeks due to Pre-U Seminar and remedials. but by left... haha. dunno. have i told u how i always give in to temptation??!!

signing off wif a kiss.

butterflies whispered at
5/17/2005 09:33:00 PM

Monday, May 16, 2005

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

yea, i downloaded e songs i wanted oredi! very nice ^.^ thankfully iMesh is working.. my Ares is hopeless la haha. this one is by Kelly Clarkson... ooh, i juz love this girl. e original American Idol... i tink she's e onli one who can go on for a long time to come. e others all lost their flavour or disappeared altogether haha.

juz a brief recount of e weekend. saturday, we had our first encounter wif e participants from e other JCs. all e SLOs were decked out in their smartest; court shoes, white long sleeve shirts, blazers and all, all ready to receive them. it was a rainy morning but it did nutting to dampen our spirits. we had to usher them to the various lecture theatres. no major screw-ups... i tot it went quite smoothly la. received some compliments from teachers from other schs for our warm hospitality. after dat, it was reception and i was assigned e food in-charge and i paired up wif Serena and Yijun. quite alright la... except dat e food ran out pretty fast and der was onli beehoon left for e SLos. so jialat... luckily Mr Leow bought chicken ric for all of us at NTU. we had a dry run after e participants finished their briefing in sch... so tiring. and we had to RUN away lor... coz dey wanted to finish it on time. in e end, Mr Leow got quite fed up... raised his voice lotsa times.

after dat, went to watch Kingdom of Heaven wif jinyi. in return for his treat, i treated him to dinner at Yoshinoya den we watched e 730pm show. anyway, e rates r going up liao... so exorbitant! next time i dun wan watch movie during weekend liao, unless someone treat haha. its quite a nice movie la... except for some gory parts, got lotsa blood. but e scenery was wonderful and e plot was very nice. nice filming i muz say... movie ended at around 10 den we went home after dat.

sunday, went out wif elaine, andrew, ying peng as a celebration for andrew's bdae. it was on friday de la supposedly so he treated us to dinner at The Cafe Cartel. went to town again, walked around while waiting for Deniece to come. we met her at PS and took neoprints! yay... very nice.. and we took it twice summo. den headed for dinner but Deniece had to go soon so she din eat much. whoa.. e food portion was soooo big. e total bill amounted to bout 90 bucks for 4 ppl. so me, elaine, ying peng and deniece chipped in to treat andrew to ice cream. we ordered e Viking and The Rock and its like freaking big. it was meant for 4 ppl la... and der were close to 10 scoops of ice cream topped wif cookies and waffles. damn nice.. but we couldnt finish it coz we were oredi bloated wif our main course oredi. and e food is very nice! a thousand thanx to andrew for e treat! den we walked around to digest e food.. walked all e way to The Heeren and browsed around HMV before heading home. great day out ^.^

and we got back our Econs common test, the case study component and i got a cool 20/30 for it! it was a tough piece and i was actuali prepared to fail it... Mr Tan said e highest among e 4 classes he taught was 22, so i guess im among e top ranks. weeee, so happy! gotta keep this up and shine for a A levels! now gotta wait for my essays to come back so dat i'll noe my overall mark. anyway, Elaine and Carmen were both sitting on my two sides wen we got back e papers and well, dey were supposedly e aces for Econs but this time round, i managed to outshine em. instead of feeling proud, i kinda felt a lil guilty wen i saw their expressions. hahaa, dunno y... coz i noe i deserved my mark and der's nutting to be ashamed of excelling in something. den it was quite awkward for a while and it got alright after dat.

im starting to miss ziheng less and less. i guess dats a good thing. i suppose im getting used to e fact dat he's not here anymore tho he smses me very occasionally, like wat mich said. anyway, get well soon michelle. betta take care of urself ya? won wanna see u in e hospital again...

butterflies whispered at
5/16/2005 10:10:00 PM

Friday, May 13, 2005

i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly
i'll do what it takes till i touch e sky
make a wish, take a chance, make a change
and breakaway...
outta e darkness and into the sun
tho its not easy to tell u goodbye
take a risk, take a chance, make a change
and breakaway...

dats wat i tell myself to do bout ziheng. today he din come to sch, and i wanted to msg him in case he's fallen sick or something, but i stopped myself. i guess dats e good thing...

i hate it! ARES is not working.. i cant download any songs! i wanna download so many songs... Gwen Stefani's "Aint no hollerback girl", Black Eyed Peas' "Don't funk with my heart", Coco Lee's "No Doubt", Kelly Clarkson's "Behind Hazel Eyes"... wahhhhhhhhhh, why muz it stop working wen der's so many nice songs at e moment?

P.S. ziheng juz replied my msg (i told him to return me my penknife coz he "confiscated" it sometime ago...). and my heart juz jumped a beat.

something bout my class: bascially, dey're a bunch of nice ppl, unique in their own ways. its been a lil over a yr dat we've first met; lotsa things have happened, class politics and all. me, being welfare officer of e class, observed certain stuffs here and der and since i have e time, i shall give my lil spill on them.

Carmen: class chairman. every bit the responsible and giving leader. easily tickled by her frenz. very gentle character yet exudes strong qualities. one of e smarter ones in class. hardworking. very obedient, onli occasionally giving in to temptations of slacking. has e same weakness as me: a poor appetite for horror and gore i.e. i saw her cringing at e video clip of Battle Royale during Project Work Oral Presentation even though it was onli of a girl stabbing a guy's crotch. (ewks)
Conclusion: everybody loves carmen!

Deniece: fellow welfare officer. one of e louder ppl in e class, known for her enthusiasm in sch-oriented events and famous for cheering. prime choice for teachers to take on leadership roles. devout Christian. has a loving boyfren, Ben! and most imptly, my best pal in e whole school. listens wif no complaints, offers wise advice and a shoulder to lean on at all times. my confidantee! hehe. superb singer-cum-dancer-cum-emcee. has her share of low moments though, resulting from low self-esteem and failure to reach others' expectations. quite emotional and succumbs to pressure at times, but still displays a strong character nonethless. been thru thick and thin with her, laughter and tears. and i love this girl to bits! ^.^

Hafizah: one of e more amusing ppl in e class. a sharp sense of wit and humour; nv fails to crack up her pals. advocate of motivation and leadership. has a high level of confidence in herself and takes pride in her work. fun-loving and playful in nature. has low tolerance for ppl who pisses her off. had some falloutswif ppl in e class b4 but managed to patch it up. e cutest thing i find bout her: her Malay accent and e sound of her laughter!

Elaine Jean: most aggressive and assertive member of e class. highly philosophical and well-versed in e arts. appointed leader of my PW group; assumes her responsibility well and handles pressure well. though she looks unapproachable, she is in fact very easily amused. however, just as easily pissed off. very sticky bout Mr Koh's command of English haha. e onli person in e class who dares to lash out at Alvin. fantastic British accent. but behind dat aggression, lies a fragile personality that uses e former as a facade for e latter. u just need time to get along wif her and she'll be a great person to hang out wif.

Gwen: ECONS REP! e onli person who takes e same subject combi as me in e class. very nice, sweet and caring. always there to cheer u up and nv fails to let u noe dat ur appreciated. regards her duties seriously. loyalty is her strongest trait. admirable capacity of tolerance but once u get past e boundary, she nv hesitates to snap at u. my fav. gossipmonger during Chinese A class ^.^ another one of my confidantee as well! one of e few ppl who makes strangers feel at ease wif her with her cheeky grin that makes her eyes disappear and her teeth bared as well as her amiable warmth. e "old woman" of 04A5; supplement dat wif her frequent whines of backaches keke.

wah... its oredi 11.12pm. i still have 4/5 of e class to go and i got SLO at 7am in e morning. im sorry guys, but i regret telling u dat i gotta leave this till tml. haha, keep u in suspense. yes chaoshun, i noe ur waiting in anticipation for ur name to appear haha! nightiez~

butterflies whispered at
5/13/2005 10:10:00 PM

Thursday, May 12, 2005

things have finally come to a standstill. we agreed to be juz frenz for now, but i tink i noe too well that "for now" will become "now and forever". yesterday i felt so ill at ease wif e situation (him being distant and all) that i msged him to clarify things. as usual, he din reali make it clear la... he probably had stuff dat he din wan me to noe. den i kinda got agitated and pessimistic... kept asking telling me dat i shld get out of his life lalalala. so melodramatic haha. anyway, ya... we agreed to keep it neutral lor. but in any case, if he's willing to comply, it juz means dat his feelings has cooled off. might as well la.. dun hafta put up wif this bewilderment anymore. sigh. but no matter i try, i'll always be looking out for him in sch but turning my head instantly wen our glances meet, or constantly checking my hp to see if he replied or not. bah... shee-it happens.

anyway, JJC or rather, all e J1s, OGLs and SLOs went down to Toa Payoh Sports Hall to root for e volleyball girls. dey got into e finals and dey won NYJC, who was reigning champion for dunno how many yrs. well done man.. haha, i was suaning evelyn for dat. juz wanted to say dat our cheering was reali commendable. i wasn't able to soak in this atmosphere b4 coz all e schs i've been nv had e chance to bring e whole sch down to support a single event and i muz say e feeling was juz great. e sense of pride, on seeing the whole sch cheer in unison and getting all hyped up over every point dey scored. i tink i positively went crazy as i cheered... i juz screamed my heart out. partly coz of e heartache i was feeling over e issue wif ziheng, so i juz took it all out on e screams and all. had so much fun... JJC rox! whoohooo~

cant wait for e weekend to come. gonna meet up wif e Pre-U Seminar participants this saturday and den we're going down to ntu again. after dat going for movie wif jinyi coz he owed me this treat (he said he won win CAEZURA but dey did, so i made him blanjah me) den sunday going to celebrate andrew's bdae! haha... i feel so liberated now dat all e small tests are over. had my TCA 5 today and my mo xie. i guess i din fare too bad for both la, hopefully.

tml is carmen and andrew's bdae! happy 18th, peeps!

i dunno y but i keep recollecting e times we went out, e times we spent together. but nonetheless, im convinced dat its a mistake and i'll get over this mistake in time to come, no matter wat... dats a promise to myself.

some tension going on between my classmates. hope everything will smooth out asap... but i love u guys all e same. ~muah~

butterflies whispered at
5/12/2005 11:23:00 PM

Saturday, May 07, 2005

im alternating between feelings of like and dislike for ziheng. i dunno why and i dunno what to do about it. sometimes, i juz miss him but at other times, i get reminded bout his various flaws and i get reali turned off. alot of times, i'll tink of just ending this whole thing and just keep it as the level of normal friends, but after a while, i'll start to reconsider again.

but frankly speaking, i muz say that he's not reali e ideal guy for me. der's too many things that i don't agree with him. it's kinda like a personality clash of sorts. e way he handles things is just not mature enuff, i feel. but i aint gonna impose my opinions on him... i mean, some other girl might bear it but as far as i know, if we gonna get together, we'll have alot of conflicts la. e level of incompatibility is too high. still, i can't stop myself from liking him.

i feel bad for blowing him hot and cold. many times, i told him to juz give up or that i wanna end it off, but he gets reali reali upset bout it and i cant reinforce my intention anymore. i end up agreeing not to bring up the issue of "separation" but i noe, somehow it'll surface again bcoz it concerns my future and happiness. i know too well that we won't get along well for long. i dont wanna be giving in all e time, like that week when we almost officiated our relationship. and when i contradict his viewpoint, he's not strong enuff to take it. i don't wan a man liddat coz in terms of relationships and feelings, i noe myself too well to trust myself in the hands of someone liddat. i myself am too weak and prone to breakdowns.. i'll neeed someone way stronger than that.

speaking of which, i sense that he's distancing himself as well. he's not contacting me as much as he used to. it may be a good thing, now that he's backing out on his accord... but it makes me think again bout his words of promise; that he'll gladly wait for me till e A levels, that I am very important to him blah blah blah. men and their promises.

butterflies whispered at
5/07/2005 05:40:00 PM

ah, since xiaowen wans to noe bout e date.. i shall start off on that note. it din turn out well la.. coz he had to go for lunch wif his family and we onli managed to meet up at 5 liddat. i was quite piss-ified oredi coz he always keeps me waiting, but since its his bdae, i shall juz keep quiet. thankfully i had foresight and brought my econs along to study... ended up at Mos Burger for close to two hours and i was complaining to mich bout it haha. it was quite hostile wen we met up coz i kinda "told him off" via sms for doing dat, coz its not e first time dat i've been waiting for hours and it doesnt make it excusable that its his bdae. e fact dat he din even bother to reply my sms or pick up my call showed alot as well.. so we juz walked down to Pastamania and watched him eat dinner coz i was oredi full of Mos Burger's strawberry milkshake and fries. after dat, i softened abit coz he seemed quite upset bout it and besides, he's been having diarrhoea for e whole of e previous day, so i initiated to tok to him more lor. got okay after a while.. actuali i told him dat i had to go off strictly at 745pm, but ah... i delayed it till 9 something instead. took 174 back... he couldnt send me home coz he claimed his mum would nag as der was sch e next day. oh well. boring day... and haha, he hugged me after i passed him his present but i was quite stoic bout it la. haha.. din allow him to touch me after dat. who ask him to make me wait.. hurmph.

and he has e cheek to ask me to celebrate it wif him another day. so i gleefully asked him out for a movie today... called him after Talentime coz i was quite happy and wanted to share e joy wif him. but i spent today sleeping in e afternoon and lazing around at home instead. he nv seem to be able to make any concrete plans for any of our "dates"... its always, "call me wen u reach home, we'll see how" dat kinda thing. and wen i do, he din pick up. actuali he was taking a nap... that, i din blame him coz i oso slept, planning to wake up onli wen he called me back. e thing was, i called him after i woke up at around 7 and he actuali went out wif his frenz. !@#$% and he din even account to me dat he was going out... shldnt have asked him out in e 1st place. argh.. i oredi feel some of my feelings fading away. in fact, it's gradually waning off ever since i distanced myself from him... plus e fact dat i dun agree wif his tone and attitude towards some issues at times. he can be quite condescending but he probably din mean it in a serious way... still, for me, i like ppl to be good-mannered bout stuff lor. anyway, e interesting thing is, i actuali had a nightmare bout him. we met on a cruise together la and arranged to visit some places together, but like in reality, he din concretise any plans and made me wait in vain. so i juz walked away from him. at first, he was quite helpless and onli wen i started to climb a flight of stairs, he started to shout "applie!" and chased after me. den i panicked and fled from him asap... went into this complex and hid in a accessory shop to avoid being seen. i can actuali feel my heart thumping outside e context of my dream.. so scary... i was reali reali afraid of him at dat time, i dunno y. den i came out from e shop and he was gone... probably gone back to his room to rest, i tot. and guess what! i met evelyn, jinyi, starion and a few other faces whom i cant rmb now! hahaa... dats funny.. it was then when i received a call and i feared that it was from ziheng.. then i juz woke up suddenly and found out dat my phone was ringing (e call was frm nadzerah). wah.. got a very ominous feeling after dat nightmare...

it's 2.03am and he hasn't called/smsed me till now when he actuali said "get back to you later" at 7pm. now you see why i haben warmed up to him or accepted him yet?

enuff of him. !@#$% ah, Talentime is over.. CAEZURA got third. quite a disappointment coz we actuali expected first. not dat im being a sore loser or what, but i reali felt that our dance encompasses much mors substance than e other groups. we look good, we had a moves n choreography and we had e coordination that other groups were lacking. i guess e judging juz wasn't professional enuff... alot of ppl agreed as well. even if it weren't true for the Dance category, it was the case for e singing category as well. i cant believe Deniece got third... she at least deserved a second lor. she was so disappointed that she cried. Ying Peng got third.. but that's not e worst. Han Ning actuali lost to Minnie! she got fourth while e latter got second.. so atrocious! Han Ning is obviously the one who sang it betta.. it's onli that Minnie had a bigger voice but that doesnt mean that she can pull it off wif e song she picked. ther was so much controversy... i wonder if der was actuali manipulation involved, coz e results were sooooo screwed up. even for e group category, i personally felt PAL shouldnt deserve it coz pierce sang off-tune so many times while others had it betta. mebbe 2nd la.. and DREAMERZ shldnt be last as well. gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i kinda expected us to get third after hearing e results for e singing category, so it came as no surprise to me when dey announced us 2nd runner-up. still, it was quite a big disappointment. but im glad that alot of our frenz, classmates esp. Chaoshun, Rachel, Azrul, Mrs Razal, Gwen, Afiah, Carmen, GenX, Andrew, Han Wei, Chun Feng and all e others who were there to support us in one way of another. thanx for e rose, chaoshun!!! its so sweet... and these ppl helped us get over e disappointment and e huge group of us trudged down to McDonald's to have a feast. gonna thank Auntie Justine big time for her help during this time.. and we're organising a treat for her sometime next week. yay!!! cheers to CAEZURA! its been such a pleasure working wif u guys.. im sure this is not e end of our time. special thanks to Kai Eng and Taiyi... onli got to know u guys thru this event and im glad to say that i've nv regretted meeting both of u. u guys were great.. love ya!!

after all dat excitement, i had SLO briefing this morning. yep, one event after another. im such a busy girl haha. reported to sch.. had some icebreakers with the family members.. went down to NTU to familarise with the routes and all. overall, had quite abit of fun la.. hope that it'll turn out to be a great success and experience. ^.^

xiaowen, you free on any sundays?

butterflies whispered at
5/07/2005 05:27:00 PM

Sunday, May 01, 2005

CAEZURA's gonna stomp e house next friday! yep, juz one more week to go and we're juz rearing to go man! whoohoo..

one taxing week has passed, and one more to go before we party!!! got toopid econs term test on tues... grrrr.

friday went out wif fidz n eve for dinner at westmall. had mos burger.. den walked around, ate ice cream at mac, chilled and juz took lotsa photos haha. had a great time wif em... den yesterday had a fabulous tanning session wif evelyn at her club. whoa, my tan is damn nice now.. spent like juz 3 hrs lying by e poolside and e sun juz did his job. yay, can show off during talentime.. i wearing a backless halter top anyway. wahahaha... we were positively gushing bout our newly-acquired tan. went to suntec after dat to get bdae presents for a couple of ppl.. bought 2 boxes of liquor chocs intended for xiaojun n ziheng, but after i tasted it, i decided against giving it to ziheng. ended up buying almond roca at Liberty Supermarket... had i known, i wouldnt have gone all e way to suntec. -_-" den made a personalised keychain for him as well. had a blue penguin at e end of it... hahaa, very significant to him de.

going out wif zh tml to celebrate his bdae... hopefully no jj ppl see us... if not, i'll have helluva time trying to explain myself. tink he wans to watch house of wax, but i scared!!!!!! at most go n hug him lor... but i'll make sure its strictly for his bdae onli. ^.^ hopefully it'll turn out well la.... anyway, i confessed to him bout 4 days ago dat i lied wen i said i didnt like him anymore. so things r slowly returning to e days b4 e fateful Monday wen i distanced myself from him... but i'll still keep myself drawn back till he reali reali can convince me. anyway, der won be anything official until at least e A levels... we'll see how la...

gonna go jogging again at 6 later. and yay, im gaining my shape back again! wahoo! eve said i looked damn skinny wen i was trying out a bikini at westmall on fri. hahaa... oh did i mention dat i saw lotsa nice bikinis at sportslink???? but dey're all going for above 40 bucks... one day shall go bikini shopping at far east and hopefully get a cheap n pretty one. and xiaowen still owes me one for my bdae =X

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5/01/2005 04:40:00 PM