Thursday, May 12, 2005
things have finally come to a standstill. we agreed to be juz frenz for now, but i tink i noe too well that "for now" will become "now and forever". yesterday i felt so ill at ease wif e situation (him being distant and all) that i msged him to clarify things. as usual, he din reali make it clear la... he probably had stuff dat he din wan me to noe. den i kinda got agitated and pessimistic... kept asking telling me dat i shld get out of his life lalalala. so melodramatic haha. anyway, ya... we agreed to keep it neutral lor. but in any case, if he's willing to comply, it juz means dat his feelings has cooled off. might as well la.. dun hafta put up wif this bewilderment anymore. sigh. but no matter i try, i'll always be looking out for him in sch but turning my head instantly wen our glances meet, or constantly checking my hp to see if he replied or not. bah... shee-it happens.
anyway, JJC or rather, all e J1s, OGLs and SLOs went down to Toa Payoh Sports Hall to root for e volleyball girls. dey got into e finals and dey won NYJC, who was reigning champion for dunno how many yrs. well done man.. haha, i was suaning evelyn for dat. juz wanted to say dat our cheering was reali commendable. i wasn't able to soak in this atmosphere b4 coz all e schs i've been nv had e chance to bring e whole sch down to support a single event and i muz say e feeling was juz great. e sense of pride, on seeing the whole sch cheer in unison and getting all hyped up over every point dey scored. i tink i positively went crazy as i cheered... i juz screamed my heart out. partly coz of e heartache i was feeling over e issue wif ziheng, so i juz took it all out on e screams and all. had so much fun... JJC rox! whoohooo~
cant wait for e weekend to come. gonna meet up wif e Pre-U Seminar participants this saturday and den we're going down to ntu again. after dat going for movie wif jinyi coz he owed me this treat (he said he won win CAEZURA but dey did, so i made him
blanjah me) den sunday going to celebrate andrew's bdae! haha... i feel so liberated now dat all e small tests are over. had my TCA 5 today and my mo xie. i guess i din fare too bad for both la, hopefully.
tml is carmen and andrew's bdae! happy 18th, peeps!
i dunno y but i keep recollecting e times we went out, e times we spent together. but nonetheless, im convinced dat its a mistake and i'll get over this mistake in time to come, no matter wat... dats a promise to myself.
some tension going on between my classmates. hope everything will smooth out asap... but i love u guys all e same. ~muah~
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5/12/2005 11:23:00 PM
