[[see through me]]
[x] applie
[x] elaine/menghui/apple pie/heng mui/ah meng
[x] sweet seventeen turning elephantine eighteen
[x] 02/11/1987
[x] jurong junior college
[x] family, friends
[x] passion, truth, beauty, love
[x] adventure seeker, daredevil at heart
[x] cynical optimist
[x] introvertly emotional
[x] hypersensitive, uberparanoid
[x] down-to-earth, happy-go-lucky

[[fancies]]
[x] white chocolate
[x] rum and raisin ice cream
[x] strawberries in any form
[x] gummy candies
[x] contemporary popular dance
[x] singing chee-na pop
[x] pink and white
[x] shopping and window-shopping
[x] swimming
[x] short poems
[x] stoning
[x] smiling and making ppl smile
[x] mint

[[pooh-poohs]]
[x] smokers
[x] animal abusers
[x] two-timers/womanisers
[x] male chauvinist pigs
[x] injections/dental/surgery
[x] flying bugs
[x] supernatural occurences
[x] gore
[x] insecurity


[[withered glory]]
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[[friends and favs]]
designer
chaoshun
evelyn
xiaowen
serena
Xiaxue
Ayumi Hamasaki
Shutterfly ;

Saturday, October 22, 2005

ding dong bell, pussy in the well. today is friday, which means 8 more days to e start of A levels.



*tears hair, make horrified face, steam coming out from ears*



ok, e font was irritatingly small but i tink i'll change it once i have e time. actuali i do now, but im feeling tired and unwell. been having dizzy spells for e couple of days oredi. whichever evil person cursed me, pls lift dat e spell from me pls. its giving me a terrible time grrrrrrrrrrrrr.


my hair is getting thick again. i gotta trim it soon, before it becomes a mop. anyway, chaoshun... i guess u haben known me well enuff to be a person who doesnt practise what she preaches. haha. im serious! well back to e subject of exams. sigh. i know i've been trashing bout giving up and all dat, but i guess its in a fit of frustration and anger. i wont give up la... too much is at stake. even if i hafta work till i die, i'll do it. its juz e fear and pressure that is mounting up each day, as it presses even closer to the first paper. i duno wats making me so worn out and panicky, but I AM. argh.


anyway, a piece of good news. i went to POPULAR to restock my stationary supplies. actuali, i wanted to include a penknife in my shopping list but i guess i shld outgrow that stage oredi. no more escapism for me. im a sensible girl now. turning 18 soon. i saw a delectable pink penknife and i stood staring at it for a full 2 mins while e demons wreaked havoc in me, but well, rationality sets in so i turned away to e pen section instead. aye, aint u proud of me? quick, pat me on my head!!


if u see me anywhere, zoning out and looking as if e world has crumbled around me, pls wake me up from my reverie and give me an assuring word or something. how desperate can i get, begging ppl to console me???!!!!! ok, im on a very self-contradictory mood today so pardon me.

if onli i can go on a binge for chocolates. i need endorphins badly. i wanna go to johor on deepavali to celebrate my bdae. =(

butterflies whispered at
10/22/2005 12:12:00 AM