[[see through me]]
[x] applie
[x] elaine/menghui/apple pie/heng mui/ah meng
[x] sweet seventeen turning elephantine eighteen
[x] 02/11/1987
[x] jurong junior college
[x] family, friends
[x] passion, truth, beauty, love
[x] adventure seeker, daredevil at heart
[x] cynical optimist
[x] introvertly emotional
[x] hypersensitive, uberparanoid
[x] down-to-earth, happy-go-lucky

[[fancies]]
[x] white chocolate
[x] rum and raisin ice cream
[x] strawberries in any form
[x] gummy candies
[x] contemporary popular dance
[x] singing chee-na pop
[x] pink and white
[x] shopping and window-shopping
[x] swimming
[x] short poems
[x] stoning
[x] smiling and making ppl smile
[x] mint

[[pooh-poohs]]
[x] smokers
[x] animal abusers
[x] two-timers/womanisers
[x] male chauvinist pigs
[x] injections/dental/surgery
[x] flying bugs
[x] supernatural occurences
[x] gore
[x] insecurity


[[withered glory]]
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[[friends and favs]]
designer
chaoshun
evelyn
xiaowen
serena
Xiaxue
Ayumi Hamasaki
Shutterfly ;

Friday, October 14, 2005

im sulking in front of e library computer now. today is graduation day but it feels like juz any normal day. no formal ceremony, reception , speech or anything. we din even have any formal class photo taking. half e class din come and e remaining half had less than lukewarm responses. everyone seems so jaded.

but im still glad for e days i spent in jjc. i muz say that it has reali been fulfilling and wonderful, despite lots of unpleasant experiences and all. i got loving friends and caring teachers to enrich my otherwise boring life. i got to participate in once-in-a-lifetime opportunities like SLO and OGL, all of which remain etched in my fondest memories. i felt this pang of regret if i din take e chance to say how much i appreciated my classmates, so i wrote some notes for them and to decorate a cushion i got for Mrs Razal. then now i had to pay for it with droopy eyes and lack of energy. hope they understand my intentions.

i recall that my sec sch graduation was alot more memorable. we had e reception and prize-giving ceremony. tho it wasnt exactly grand, we enjoyed it in a sort of humble and sweet way. i took photos with whomever i could take with, and who can forget dat fear-defying stunt me and xiaowen attempted when we climbed over e railings to take a photo on the rooftop of the classroom corridor block?


sigh. i wish things could be a lil betta. i dunno why but i feel this horrible sense of alienation come over me. izzit that im overworry, oversensitive and izzit reali that ppl's attitude towards me have changed? and of all days, it had to be on e last day of sch... but im certain that im e same old applie as always. mebbe i did changed a lil unconsciously and im sorri if it caused any offence or unhappiness in anyone. i am consumed by all kinds of possibilities for now. reali dunno what to tink of it..

going for dramafest later. hope it cheers me up a lil. tata

butterflies whispered at
10/14/2005 01:48:00 PM