Saturday, May 07, 2005
ah, since xiaowen wans to noe bout e date.. i shall start off on that note. it din turn out well la.. coz he had to go for lunch wif his family and we onli managed to meet up at 5 liddat. i was quite piss-ified oredi coz he always keeps me waiting, but since its his bdae, i shall juz keep quiet. thankfully i had foresight and brought my econs along to study... ended up at Mos Burger for close to two hours and i was complaining to mich bout it haha. it was quite hostile wen we met up coz i kinda "told him off" via sms for doing dat, coz its not e first time dat i've been waiting for hours and it doesnt make it excusable that its his bdae. e fact dat he din even bother to reply my sms or pick up my call showed alot as well.. so we juz walked down to Pastamania and watched him eat dinner coz i was oredi full of Mos Burger's strawberry milkshake and fries. after dat, i softened abit coz he seemed quite upset bout it and besides, he's been having diarrhoea for e whole of e previous day, so i initiated to tok to him more lor. got okay after a while.. actuali i told him dat i had to go off strictly at 745pm, but ah... i delayed it till 9 something instead. took 174 back... he couldnt send me home coz he claimed his mum would nag as der was sch e next day. oh well. boring day... and haha, he hugged me after i passed him his present but i was quite stoic bout it la. haha.. din allow him to touch me after dat. who ask him to make me wait.. hurmph.
and he has e cheek to ask me to celebrate it wif him another day. so i gleefully asked him out for a movie today... called him after Talentime coz i was quite happy and wanted to share e joy wif him. but i spent today sleeping in e afternoon and lazing around at home instead. he nv seem to be able to make any concrete plans for any of our "dates"... its always, "call me wen u reach home, we'll see how" dat kinda thing. and wen i do, he din pick up. actuali he was taking a nap... that, i din blame him coz i oso slept, planning to wake up onli wen he called me back. e thing was, i called him after i woke up at around 7 and he actuali went out wif his frenz.
!@#$% and he din even account to me dat he was going out... shldnt have asked him out in e 1st place. argh.. i oredi feel some of my feelings fading away. in fact, it's gradually waning off ever since i distanced myself from him... plus e fact dat i dun agree wif his tone and attitude towards some issues at times. he can be quite condescending but he probably din mean it in a serious way... still, for me, i like ppl to be good-mannered bout stuff lor. anyway, e interesting thing is, i actuali had a nightmare bout him. we met on a cruise together la and arranged to visit some places together, but like in reality, he din concretise any plans and made me wait in vain. so i juz walked away from him. at first, he was quite helpless and onli wen i started to climb a flight of stairs, he started to shout "applie!" and chased after me. den i panicked and fled from him asap... went into this complex and hid in a accessory shop to avoid being seen. i can actuali feel my heart thumping outside e context of my dream.. so scary... i was reali reali afraid of him at dat time, i dunno y. den i came out from e shop and he was gone... probably gone back to his room to rest, i tot. and guess what! i met evelyn, jinyi, starion and a few other faces whom i cant rmb now! hahaa... dats funny.. it was then when i received a call and i feared that it was from ziheng.. then i juz woke up suddenly and found out dat my phone was ringing (e call was frm nadzerah). wah.. got a very ominous feeling after dat nightmare...
it's 2.03am and he hasn't called/smsed me till now when he actuali said "get back to you later" at 7pm. now you see why i haben warmed up to him or accepted him yet?
enuff of him.
!@#$% ah, Talentime is over.. CAEZURA got third. quite a disappointment coz we actuali expected first. not dat im being a sore loser or what, but i reali felt that our dance encompasses much mors substance than e other groups. we look good, we had a moves n choreography and we had e coordination that other groups were lacking. i guess e judging juz wasn't professional enuff... alot of ppl agreed as well. even if it weren't true for the Dance category, it was the case for e singing category as well. i cant believe Deniece got third... she at least deserved a second lor. she was so disappointed that she cried. Ying Peng got third.. but that's not e worst. Han Ning actuali lost to Minnie! she got fourth while e latter got second.. so atrocious! Han Ning is obviously the one who sang it betta.. it's onli that Minnie had a bigger voice but that doesnt mean that she can pull it off wif e song she picked. ther was so much controversy... i wonder if der was actuali manipulation involved, coz e results were sooooo screwed up. even for e group category, i personally felt PAL shouldnt deserve it coz pierce sang off-tune so many times while others had it betta. mebbe 2nd la.. and DREAMERZ shldnt be last as well. gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i kinda expected us to get third after hearing e results for e singing category, so it came as no surprise to me when dey announced us 2nd runner-up. still, it was quite a big disappointment. but im glad that alot of our frenz, classmates esp. Chaoshun, Rachel, Azrul, Mrs Razal, Gwen, Afiah, Carmen, GenX, Andrew, Han Wei, Chun Feng and all e others who were there to support us in one way of another. thanx for e rose, chaoshun!!! its so sweet... and these ppl helped us get over e disappointment and e huge group of us trudged down to McDonald's to have a feast. gonna thank Auntie Justine big time for her help during this time.. and we're organising a treat for her sometime next week. yay!!! cheers to CAEZURA! its been such a pleasure working wif u guys.. im sure this is not e end of our time. special thanks to Kai Eng and Taiyi... onli got to know u guys thru this event and im glad to say that i've nv regretted meeting both of u. u guys were great.. love ya!!
after all dat excitement, i had SLO briefing this morning. yep, one event after another. im such a busy girl haha. reported to sch.. had some icebreakers with the family members.. went down to NTU to familarise with the routes and all. overall, had quite abit of fun la.. hope that it'll turn out to be a great success and experience. ^.^
xiaowen, you free on any sundays?
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5/07/2005 05:27:00 PM
