[[see through me]]
[x] applie
[x] elaine/menghui/apple pie/heng mui/ah meng
[x] sweet seventeen turning elephantine eighteen
[x] 02/11/1987
[x] jurong junior college
[x] family, friends
[x] passion, truth, beauty, love
[x] adventure seeker, daredevil at heart
[x] cynical optimist
[x] introvertly emotional
[x] hypersensitive, uberparanoid
[x] down-to-earth, happy-go-lucky

[[fancies]]
[x] white chocolate
[x] rum and raisin ice cream
[x] strawberries in any form
[x] gummy candies
[x] contemporary popular dance
[x] singing chee-na pop
[x] pink and white
[x] shopping and window-shopping
[x] swimming
[x] short poems
[x] stoning
[x] smiling and making ppl smile
[x] mint

[[pooh-poohs]]
[x] smokers
[x] animal abusers
[x] two-timers/womanisers
[x] male chauvinist pigs
[x] injections/dental/surgery
[x] flying bugs
[x] supernatural occurences
[x] gore
[x] insecurity


[[withered glory]]
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Sunday, July 03, 2005

sleepless nights. nv one night passed without all those illusions haunting me.

my mum cooked me herbs to make me sleep betta.
i went to the kuan yin temple and prayed.
my aunt bought an amber pendant dat has calming properties.
she taught me a mantra to ward off evil.

it still din work. last night, i tot i would be able to get over it but i couldnt. i was in my room initially, chanting e mantra over and over again whenever my mind succumbs to it. but i still kept trembling, still kept breaking out in cold sweat. den i went to my parent's room, tried to get some sleep but i ended up crying coz i felt so bloody useless.


dunno when we're gonna resolve this matter. its seriously affecting me... this week alone, i misplaced my hp 3 times, and my wallet once. thankfully i found them back. e longer it drags, e worse it'll get. today i discovered something again... and it is disturbingly hurting. cant bear to tink it...

mama took em to a priest this morning. he chanted some prayers, and blew a breath of air into one of my holy bracelets. i tink its supposed to gimme strength. i juz drank e water dissolved with e ashes of a talisman... im keeping my fingers crossed...

butterflies whispered at
7/03/2005 11:04:00 PM