[[see through me]]
[x] applie
[x] elaine/menghui/apple pie/heng mui/ah meng
[x] sweet seventeen turning elephantine eighteen
[x] 02/11/1987
[x] jurong junior college
[x] family, friends
[x] passion, truth, beauty, love
[x] adventure seeker, daredevil at heart
[x] cynical optimist
[x] introvertly emotional
[x] hypersensitive, uberparanoid
[x] down-to-earth, happy-go-lucky

[[fancies]]
[x] white chocolate
[x] rum and raisin ice cream
[x] strawberries in any form
[x] gummy candies
[x] contemporary popular dance
[x] singing chee-na pop
[x] pink and white
[x] shopping and window-shopping
[x] swimming
[x] short poems
[x] stoning
[x] smiling and making ppl smile
[x] mint

[[pooh-poohs]]
[x] smokers
[x] animal abusers
[x] two-timers/womanisers
[x] male chauvinist pigs
[x] injections/dental/surgery
[x] flying bugs
[x] supernatural occurences
[x] gore
[x] insecurity


[[withered glory]]
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[[friends and favs]]
designer
chaoshun
evelyn
xiaowen
serena
Xiaxue
Ayumi Hamasaki
Shutterfly ;

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

its recurring again. e last 2 nights were spent in my parents' bedroom. now im reali afraid to sleep at night. even having my parents in e room doesnt help, coz its right there in my mind. its fooling around with my sanity...

i noe what is causing it. but i cant do anything to stop it. i found out yet summo evidence. its causing a big gaping hole in my heart, a reeling state of mental imbalance and incessant fear. i find dat my tolerance is slowly wearing off, my attention is short-spanned and i get psychologically exhausted easily. because of e tumultous nights, i cant keep awake... coffee doesnt help too. i keep switching off... and today i juz got back my Econs case study. 11/30. huh... e fact dat everyone has this kinda grades across e level, doesnt come as a consolation to me. my MCQ sucked even more. 7/15. FAIL. i spent one week studying for Econs alone and came back with this kinda grades. and i need 30 marks for my essay juz to pass... 30/50 leh. its not a very high possibility...

bleeding my life away...

butterflies whispered at
7/12/2005 10:21:00 PM