Friday, July 15, 2005
i'll live with it. i know dat my condition is pretty bad but i'll overcome it somewhat. i'll find e strength within me to get thru this. i may not succeed but i'll try.
"I cannot get enough of people that know what they want, and that want all the beautiful things life has to offer them. But it’s not enough to just know, they need to believe they’ve the right to it, and that it’s possible. Everything really is possible, and I don’t believe we are living in a bland age where nothing exciting ever happens, where everyone is apathetic and uninterested in anything aside from making life a little more bearable for themselves." -sarongpartygirl
i cant agree more. anyway, elaine tan immediately comes to mind when i saw this on SPG's blog. she's like e perfect ambassador for this. i find dat my life is so mundane, sch home sleep sch home sleep. occasionally trips to town and hanging out wif frenz. typical 18-year-old life. i so wanna do something outta e ordinary... i wanted to do part-time voiceover. i wanna be in e service industry, smiling and serving ppl everyday. i have no big dreams; i juz dun wanna be part of this insectified society, working a 9-5 job, having e same routine everyday. i crave excitement. i have e zest for life. shouldnt everyone have that too? i guess ppl have varied definitions of zest. fedora told me dat this top student in her faculty actuali studies e minute she reaches home till bout 2 or 3am, till she understands every single bit of her lecture notes. it is onli when she needs to eat or go to e loo dat she rests. otherwise, its juz STUDY SLEEP STUDY SLEEP. that is totally scary. i cant imagine myself doing that. i'll have no life la... i wonder if she ever feels contented doing that. mebbe for her, getting e results she desperately wants is her ultimate achievement in life and striving for that is a fulfilment to her. mebbe it would be healthier to strike a balance... like Mr Leow. he works sooo hard yet he has e time for so many other tasks. and he thoroughly enjoys himself. how i wish i could pan my life out this way too..
starting my fitness regime again in dunno-how-many-months. began wif a 15 run in e park, 30 sit ups and 30 push ups for mere warming up. gonna increase it gradually... next session will be tml. yea man.. time to get those fats burnt away. but gotta admit dat i almost burst my tummy eatign at deniece's house today. rachel, her and me went over to cook spaghetti! haha. had such fun... and we cooked so much dat we were practically struggling to finish e last morsel of pasta on e plate. but it was nice! digested our food by way of teaching deniece econs haha. i haben been very close to rachel actuali, juz dat i hang out wif her in sch. but i find her a very nice person to tok to... she's very soft-spoken, very tolerant, easy-going and easily amused. yea.. love rachel!!!
have i mentioned how i detest ppl who takes my things w/o permission? its basic respect ok. if you're reading this, u jolly well know who you are. i dun hafta spell it out. i mentioned it to you alot of times before, and just before i kept quiet bout it doesnt mean i dunno anything bout it. u betta stop what you're doing before i get nasty. im being very nice here by not flaring up at e invasion of my private space.was going to sch today alone coz my pa nv fetch. i was walking from e life landing to e bus-stop when i passed by a group of teenaged hooligans and dey wolf-whistled/made teasing sounds. i ignored and continued walking since i normally dun bother bout such boliao ppl, and was standing quite a distance away from them when this guy rode up on his bike and tapped me on my shoulder. i was kinda startled, and he said dat his fren wanted to noe me and requested my handphone. being e patient person i am, i politely told him "im going to sch and i dun have time for u" sorta stuff but he kept persisting dat dey could wait till im dismissed from sch blah blah blah. heck. firstly, he could barely speak Chinese decently and secondly, he looked like some underaged adolescent. and he dares to come up to me for my number. some ppl... i juz cant believe how desperate/thick-skinned/ignorant dey are. apathy i say.
ah. now i onli got weijian to tide over my frustrations. tml im going to "fight" for tix to e revival round. den help e fanclub paint banners. weeeeee. hopefully i'll get to go la. ^.^ jia you jia you.
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7/15/2005 11:14:00 PM
