[[see through me]]
[x] applie
[x] elaine/menghui/apple pie/heng mui/ah meng
[x] sweet seventeen turning elephantine eighteen
[x] 02/11/1987
[x] jurong junior college
[x] family, friends
[x] passion, truth, beauty, love
[x] adventure seeker, daredevil at heart
[x] cynical optimist
[x] introvertly emotional
[x] hypersensitive, uberparanoid
[x] down-to-earth, happy-go-lucky

[[fancies]]
[x] white chocolate
[x] rum and raisin ice cream
[x] strawberries in any form
[x] gummy candies
[x] contemporary popular dance
[x] singing chee-na pop
[x] pink and white
[x] shopping and window-shopping
[x] swimming
[x] short poems
[x] stoning
[x] smiling and making ppl smile
[x] mint

[[pooh-poohs]]
[x] smokers
[x] animal abusers
[x] two-timers/womanisers
[x] male chauvinist pigs
[x] injections/dental/surgery
[x] flying bugs
[x] supernatural occurences
[x] gore
[x] insecurity


[[withered glory]]
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Saturday, August 13, 2005

eve decided to have another craving and this time its durians. so early morning, fidz, eve and i trudged down to Chinatown and ate a total of 4 durians. we stank of durian breath e whole day lor... did a lil gift shopping. e stuffs were sooooo delectable, all oriental and dainty. i fell in love wif e silk evening pouches but i oredi exhausted my spending capacity, so i din buy it... after dat we went to harbourfront to walk round e new addition to e shopping mall. not much diff la... took lotsa spastic photos at Mac. haha...

supposed to meet firdaus to pass him his birthday cookies. but eve and fidz decided to eat up a whole load of it and e jar was left wif onli 3/4. i tot it clearly din look presentable as a present so i din meet him lor. anyway, e cookies tasted great! and some of it, supposedly underbaked, became brownie cookies! coz its very chewy... yum yum. eve says dey look more like chips than cookies coz dey're all flat instead of e usual Famous Amos lookalikes.





i still got no idea how to face e problem in my family. im behaving in a less tolerant way of wats happening behind our backs more so than before. i used to conceal it and gloss it over wif cheeriness but i no longer have e heart to carry on. e masquerade is too draining.

im seriously behaving outta sorts. mebbe ppl dun notice it but i sense it myself. even when i tok, i dun care to elaborate both, so mebbe dats y i juz agree with whomever im discussing with juz so i can end it and get back to my enclosure. there's alot of things i used to do but now langour juz takes away e initiative. whateva passion and enthusiasm i have have been dulled by lassitude of e situation. and nowadays, i keep sleeping. despite having enuff sleep, i still feel very dreary in sch, esp. after meals. like a pig day in day out. e adrenaline rush in preparation for e exams is gone too. =(

looks like im in for some deep shit.

butterflies whispered at
8/13/2005 11:23:00 PM